As you can see from yesterday’s post, I am wondering about who I am or should or could be these daze. This morning I got up and roasted some fresh herbs I picked from the pots in our garden. That was the first sign some things were changing. I’ve thought about drying herbs before but never gotten around to even googling how to.
Then I baked a blueberry cobbler for lunchtime dessert. After that, I whipped up fresh whipped cream! Yesterday, I finished painting a portrait of 2 of my favorite neighborhood dogs just for the joy of painting them and gifting it to their owners.
These strange actions I’ve been taking, in particularly following through on my ideas, makes me question myself. Who is this person I am becoming? This person who pursues cooking from scratch, painting from the heart and has some grey hair showing? Spoiler; the pink hair is Sarah’s wig.
Are you experiencing similar strange transformations? Do you want keep these behavior changes after the virus crisis is solved? How will we do it? Will we return to our time crunched mode of operation? I don’t want to. I want to continue on focusing on real things that matter to my friends and loved ones, like a home cooked dessert, the gifting to others of things that might delight them and spending time talking and listening. Pre Covid-19,
I can remember myself looking in the mirror studying my grey hairs and wrinkles. Wondering what I could do. I hope that version of me is gone now, flushed away by this quarantine that has helped me see some things that matter.
I am aware that this virus has caused major suffering and sadness. I don’t want to sugar coat anything, I am just mentioning changes that might be taking place inside of you and me and wondering what we plan to do about holding on to the newer versions of ourselves.
